They tell me I still am

Then why do I feel so shredded

Why do I feel like the wind is blowing for me

Whispering bitter secrets that curdle my blood

Salting my bruised ego, mocking my blindness

Can't believe I didn't see

Can't believe you were just like the others

Can't believe you're still telling yourself you're not

But most of all

I can't believe I still love you

That I'd still take you back

I'm the fool I used to laugh at

Its a cruel circle of life

I'm back here, where you pushed me

Four years ago

Dark, wet, ragged thoughts

Sharpening themselves against my princess dreams

Voices in my head, never heard them

I fought them off in true love's name

I weakened what made me me

I gave up what I was to be with you

Always was a perfect actress

And now when I need it the most

My river runs dry

It's too cold here for my tears to dry

The blinds are open, there's no sunshine

Summer's a far cry away