And I stand here

And how did this happen?

Weren't we forever?

I can't figure it out

So I fight

You can't figure it out

So you turn around

And walk away

I'm not a victim, I don't want to be one

And I'm not saying there was another way

Maybe you're stronger than me

But I don't have to be gracious about this

I can't.

Cause I still love you.

And that's forever.

- Inspired by events on 12 July 2008

(I also found this beautiful heartbreak song on youtube which is better than anything Norah Jones can ever hope to sing. Its called "someone you used to know", lyrics below.)

Lyrics to Someone You Used to Know by KokoKaina (YouTube) Copyright 2008

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
That it had to end this way
So here's to say goodbye,
Our love is lost, and we cant figure why
Maybe it really is about time
That we finally made up our minds
So Darling, here's to you
I hope that when you find someone new
That she would always be true to you
To love and understand you
Soon you'll build new memories
Then slowly you'd forget about me
Then I would slowly be
A distant memory
*Soon I'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
For letting you go
Time is not for wasting
I hope you'll find your intended
But I'm sorry
That your intended I'sn't me
It's not an easy thing
To shake off our history
I know that's what you want from me
But they will always stay with me
I admit I made mistakes
But darling with you it's just the same
If we stay there will be more to make
I dont know how much more we can take
Darling, it would be unfair
For you to stay with something no longer there
But it doesn't mean I no longer care
But I feel like a burden you can no longer bear

(PS I have no idea why I named the post what I did. California songs are always soothing - Californication, Hotel California, California Calling, California here I come). And right now, the mood is right. )